Joy and woe are woven fine by William Blake
“Joy and woe are woven fine
…” This is the first line of a William Blake poem that I discovered as I was
preparing last December for a memorial service I led for someone from the wider
community. It was my first UU memorial service. I was struggling to find words
to share in the service that would be meaningful to the loved ones who were
both grieving a painful loss and celebrating a remarkable woman whose life had
touched so many. These words by Blake resonated with me and have taken up
residence deep within me. Like the threads of a garment, joy and woe are finely
woven together into the fabric of our lives. Love is woven into grief;
happiness into sorrow; beginnings into endings.
I am in a place this week
of being keenly aware of this paradox of life. This coming Sunday, our annual
Animal Blessing service, will be my last at UUCF after over a year of ministry.
It began last summer as I served as summer director of religious exploration,
then 10 months as ministerial intern, and finally five weeks as summer
minister. It has been a year where joy and woe have been woven fine.
I remember with such
fondness the Together Times with the children in worship last summer at Oakton
Elementary when Summer Minister Eve Steven’s series about the history of UUCF
inspired an interactive UU family tree and a march with protest signs through
the auditorium. I find myself smiling and chuckling at the memory of the
Ingathering service last September, as Rev. Jennifer Brooks, Rev. Laura
Horton-Ludwig, John Monroe, Pawel Jura, Linnea Nelson and I simulated rivers,
lakes and oceans with billowing blue fabric, told a story with fish puppets and
a huge stuffed bear and read from little fish sticky notes the gifts that each
person at UUCF brings to this congregation. We have laughed and danced
(remember that worship service?) and celebrated this past year!
Oh but we have also known
the heavy weight of grief this past year. We have lost dearly beloved members
of our congregation and many have experienced the loss of friends and family
members. One of the most painful losses this past year for many of us was the
suicide of our Director of Music and Arts Pawel Jura – someone we had grown to
really admire and care about. I don’t think any of us knew how deeply woven
pain was into the fabric of Pawel’s life. And with his death, I feel as if
I have been left with a little wound within me that contains a mixture of grief
for all of us who loved and miss him, gratitude for his life, sadness for his
pain and a sweet tenderness for the special memories that I will always carry
with me. “Joy and woe are woven fine.”
And now, as I come to the
end of this full, challenging, beautiful year, I just want to say thank you.
Thank you for all the ways you have supported and encouraged me to learn and grow
both as a minister and as a human being. I now head off into a new adventure
and won’t be able to be in touch with folks at UUCF for the next year but I
want you to know that you will be with me in my heart the whole way. I am
really excited and looking forward to the work ahead for me – chaplaincy at the
Hebrew Home in Rockville, MD, and studying for my credentialing interview in
2016. I am really excited for you too and all that is ahead for UUCF this
coming year of new beginnings. I will miss you and I look forward to next year
when I can come back and reconnect, sharing the stories of joy and woe that
have shaped and deepened our spirits over the previous year.
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